Introduction: On being a spiritual seeker -- Jubilee. 1981 -- The question -- Fragments and figments -- A late Christmas -- Talking communicator God -- Aloha -- Waiting. Born again -- Nuclear family -- The tribe -- A grain of sand -- Mothers -- The pearl of great price -- A more colorful cloak. Returning -- Gathering dropped stitches -- God's world -- Double losses -- Rendezvous -- Awakenings -- Intimations of mortality -- Adieu, adieu, adieu -- Forget-me-not -- Going home again -- The knitting continues.