Edition |
First Simon Pulse hardcover edition. |
Description |
xii, 356 pages ; 22 cm |
Summary |
At nineteen, Hutchinson was struggling to find the vocabulary to understand and accept who he was and how he fit into a community in which he couldn't see himself. Convinced that he couldn't keep going, that he had no future, Hutchinson followed through on trying to make that a reality -- an attempted suicide. Over time, he came to embrace life, and to find self-acceptance. In his deeply honest memoir, he takes readers through the journey of what brought him to the edge, and what has helped him truly believe that it does get better. -- adapted from jacket |
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"'I wasn't depressed because I was gay. I was depressed *and* gay.' Shaun David Hutchinson was nineteen. Confused. Struggling to find the vocabulary to understand and accept who he was and how he fit into a community in which he couldn't see himself. The voice of depression told him that he would never be loved or wanted, while powerful and hurtful messages from society told him that being gay meant love and happiness weren't for him. A million moments large and small over the years all came together to convince Shaun that he couldn't keep going, that he had no future. And so he followed through on trying to make that a reality. Thankfully, Shaun survived, and over time, came to embrace how grateful he is and how to find self-acceptance and that it doesn't matter how others define us, only how we define ourselves. In this courageous and deeply honest memoir, Shaun takes readers through the journey of what brought him to the edge, and what has helped him truly believe that it does get better. "--Dust jacket. |
Contents |
Intro; Dedication; Content Warning, Part 1; The Truth; Part 1: The Wrong Words; Journal Entry; Vocabulary Lesson, Part 1; Future Self, Part 1; The Funny Freak; A Whole New World; I Wanna Marry The Princess; To Be Or Not To Be, Girl; Competitive Bullshitting; So. Many. Dicks.; Vocabulary Lesson, Part 2; Hidden Truth; Part 2: I Wrote My Way Out; Depression Screams; Moody Little Bitch; The American Dream; China; Doubtful; The Round Table; Cookie Date; You-Know-What; Crushed, Part 1; Crushed, Part 2; Crushed, Part 3; Love, Shaun; The Big Gay Page; Future Self, Part 2; Defense of Marriage |
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Pansy DivisionBeautiful Thing; Queer, Part 1; What I Needed to Say; Part 3: Identity Crisis; Queer, Part 2; Coming Out; Oasis; 24-Hour Notice; Faggot Flag; Key West; Dante, Part 1; XY; Dante, Part 2; The Boy with The Dragon Tattoo; My Bloody Valentine; Pounding and Pounding and Pounding; Ronni; Part 4: Depression Math; Spring Break; Cookie Monster; Everything's Good; Content Warning, Part 2; Suicide; 911; ICU; Why; Fair Oaks; Twenty Years and Counting; One Last Thing; Acknowledgments; About the Author; Copyright |
Subject |
Hutchinson, Shaun David.
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Suicidal behavior -- Patients -- Biography.
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Self-destructive behavior.
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Bipolar disorder.
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Gay people -- Biography.
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YOUNG ADULT NONFICTION / Social Topics / Suicide.
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YOUNG ADULT NONFICTION / Social Topics / Depression & Mental Illness.
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YOUNG ADULT NONFICTION / Social Topics / Emotions & Feelings.
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Gays. (OCoLC)fst00939255
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Manic-depressive illness. (OCoLC)fst01007706
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Self-destructive behavior. (OCoLC)fst01111606
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Genre/Form |
Biography.
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Autobiographies.
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Other Form: |
Online version: Hutchinson, Shaun David. Brave face. First Simon Pulse hardcover edition. New York : Simon Pulse, 2019 9781534431539 (DLC) 2018044456 |
ISBN |
9781534431515 (hardcover alkaline paper) |
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1534431519 (hardcover alkaline paper) |
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