pt. 1. Novice -- The prospect of my own death -- Nothing is certain -- The encounter at misery's end -- There is no trash -- Consumed with cleaning -- Confucius gives Jan Yu a scolding -- Working it out for myself -- "I can't do it" -- Between teacher and student -- That's between him and me -- Tree types of students -- "For the disposal of your corpse" -- The meaning of courage -- What am I doing here? -- Living out belief in infinite power -- pt. 2. Training -- A heart that does not move -- Getting to know my own idiocy -- Routine in the monastery -- No end to practice -- pt. 3. Master -- What's it all about? -- God is right here -- Is death something we cannot know? -- We are like water -- The death of my grandfather -- Inexhaustible Dharma -- To die while alive -- Give yourself to death -- Buddha life.
